Why do you presume to know what is/isn't good for me, my ADHD, and my employer with only that what I have written above.
Adderall occasionally wouldn't help me complete the tasks I have to complete. I take it as the doctor has prescribed it to me. I make sure to take breaks from it (and I schedule those with work, so they know that during that week/two weeks I am going to be distracted, have trouble concentrating and it is best to let me be and bite into a hard problem and figure it all out). I have been taking the same dose for a year now, I know its effects, I know how it affects me.
I don't use Adderall as a pick-me-up, or to cram for an exam, I use it as a daily medicine because it helps me do my work. Please don't tell me what I should or shouldn't do, or that my job is not for me. I love the work I do, I enjoy working with the people I work with and learn more than I could have ever imagined. Adderall helps me through the non-exciting parts, it helps me keep focused in design meetings, it helps me keep focused on finishing the last part of the project where there is no challenge left, it helps me be able to think clearly and reason without being distracted by other projects and things I enjoy.
The only reason I think that without Adderall I would have lost my job is that it allowed me to do all those other tasks that were not interesting that still need doing. A worker that can do the hard tasks but leaves projects unfinished is useless. When a worker can't even stay focused long enough on work to be a participant in a meeting regarding new features/design that is a problem, especially when writing new software. I can learn new technologies and pick things up almost instantly, I can see my code, see how things fit together, but once the hard part is done and the rest is just rote coding, my mind goes onto new and better things. Adderall lets me focus on writing good API documentation, it lets me focus on designing the last 10% of a library to be excellent.
I don't know how to explain it to you. You have your notions of Adderall and how it should be used, and I doubt a comment from a fairly faceless person will persuade you one way or another. What I do know is that Adderall has helped me tremendously, and has helped me accomplish things I didn't think I was capable of before.
Adderall occasionally wouldn't help me complete the tasks I have to complete. I take it as the doctor has prescribed it to me. I make sure to take breaks from it (and I schedule those with work, so they know that during that week/two weeks I am going to be distracted, have trouble concentrating and it is best to let me be and bite into a hard problem and figure it all out). I have been taking the same dose for a year now, I know its effects, I know how it affects me.
I don't use Adderall as a pick-me-up, or to cram for an exam, I use it as a daily medicine because it helps me do my work. Please don't tell me what I should or shouldn't do, or that my job is not for me. I love the work I do, I enjoy working with the people I work with and learn more than I could have ever imagined. Adderall helps me through the non-exciting parts, it helps me keep focused in design meetings, it helps me keep focused on finishing the last part of the project where there is no challenge left, it helps me be able to think clearly and reason without being distracted by other projects and things I enjoy.
The only reason I think that without Adderall I would have lost my job is that it allowed me to do all those other tasks that were not interesting that still need doing. A worker that can do the hard tasks but leaves projects unfinished is useless. When a worker can't even stay focused long enough on work to be a participant in a meeting regarding new features/design that is a problem, especially when writing new software. I can learn new technologies and pick things up almost instantly, I can see my code, see how things fit together, but once the hard part is done and the rest is just rote coding, my mind goes onto new and better things. Adderall lets me focus on writing good API documentation, it lets me focus on designing the last 10% of a library to be excellent.
I don't know how to explain it to you. You have your notions of Adderall and how it should be used, and I doubt a comment from a fairly faceless person will persuade you one way or another. What I do know is that Adderall has helped me tremendously, and has helped me accomplish things I didn't think I was capable of before.